Dueling lovers

Wow isn't it funny how we invest all this time and effort into relationships we are not even sure will work out. I mean thats the point of dateing but i mean when do you know if your wasteing your time or being impatient.At what point do you say this isn't working......Sometimes in this day and age sometimes even love isn't enough to keep to people together....or this may sound wierd has anyone ever thought of the posobility that our relationship standerds and disfunctions could totally be blamed on our parents(something else to talk to your shrinks about bloggers).
I mean i love my dad but i know i def. want someone better than him....i mean him and my mom have the most disfunctional relationship ever.....i mean its funny how people say you learn how your suppose to love someone from your parents and i love them and i learned how to love but if i modeled my love life relationships after them i would be dead sunk....i love my parents but there love life is anything i would want my love life to be like ......i mean not to blame my dad or anyhting but i think thats why i am sort of into women i mean sometimes when i look at men or they talk or people in general at times um like *vomit* this person remind me of my father and all though he is a sweet man he has his morals a little ummmm how can i say this nicely........ well he would throw his morals away for a few dollars....so with men like that in my life and a almost non existence example of a functional relationship.....i mean i try... i am wondering in the dark here....sometimes i find myself in the mist of argueing and wondering to myself does everything have to be an arguement or does thisboil down to genetic disfunctionality am i domed to this as a gift from my ancestory... but i try and will contiue to try....so i leave this topic to you readers....think about it.
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